exhausted stream of conscious.

i never go to sleep until after 3 am.

i wake up at 930 and its never enough.

im tired of arguing.
im tired of crying.


im tired of mood swings. not my own.
im tired of lies. not my own.


i love my friends.
i love my life.

i am exhausted.

i drink at least a beer a day.
i eat fast food at least once a day. this half is disgusting.


my house is a mess.
my apartment is a mess.


i want to skateboard.
i am going to seattle this weekend.
i am getting away from all of this.
i want to smoke weed. i dont care if thats a crime.


i like to drive the wrong way down one ways
and force others to do the same.


i like to walk places.
i like to hate faces.
i like to watch bands play live even if its really hot and gross.



i smoke too many cigarettes.
i have a plant, a kitty, and a crab.


i am really boring.
dont try to hang out with me.
i never have anything fun to do,
and i probably will never be exciting enough for you.



i want to sit on balconies and porches and talk to you for hours. call me.