i feel it all, i feel it all.

you know when you see a really good movie and it makes you feel like your life is so simple, plain, boring, and ordinary? well maybe thats because they dont often make movies about college kids sitting around their rooms pretending to study and listening to bad indie rock or maybe its that the conversations we have while outside smoking are really just us loving the sound of our own voices and not ultimate life truths. either way there is something about seeing a really good movie that makes me feel like i am just not doing enough. movies are filled with only the most important events. but the most important events dont happen like that in real life, not every 3 minutes like in movie land. perhaps thats all i need to recognize. when i see a really good movie, i realize this:

i want to simplify my life while at the same time exaggerating myself, if that is possible. not so much being dramatic, but just go full force into the things that make me feel alive, the things im most passionate about. i want to be intense. maybe i already am, but i think im a pretty big pussy, or have been for the last year or so. and you know what? im over it.



heres the thing though;
i havent seen a really good movie in a long time.







ps.
listen to more chick rock.