ok so you see i have this problem.

boys make me these mix CDs and i listen to them, but i guess i dont pay attention or something i dont know. then i listen to them like a year later and i go "oh shit!".

because you see boys make me these mixes where every song subtly or not is telling me they love me. and i just dont get it. then i blow them off or break their hearts, because i am scared. and then a year later i realize what was really going on and i feel like a stupid bitch.

basically i am a stupid bitch who leaves broken hearts in her wake, but i got my payback, so i wish those boys would just let me back in, because i miss them, and i need them and i care about them.

it's just so sad and pathetic that this has happened more than twice.

tears i am so useless and little.